Using God's word to slay the jabberwocky that is satan...

Using God's word to slay the jabberwocky that is satan...

Michelle M Guppy


Thursday, February 21, 2013

Here am I. Send me!

Day 50

Isaiah 1-28

As someone who for the last couple of years has been in a period of not so much doubting God's promises but more needing to fully realize them as it pertains to the healing or better control of Brandon's seizures --- I'm encouraged by the theme of Isaiah.

In that God keeps his word.  He keeps his word when it comes to discipline and punishment for his people who choose not to obey him, and he keeps his word when it comes to the promises of prosperity and blessing.

In either case - we would do well to heed His warnings and cling to His promises.

As with many previous day's readings on this journey -- Israel too was scattered and punished because of their persistent sin.

Isaiah 1:4 says, "Ah, sinful nation, a people loaded with guilt, a brood of evildoers, children given to corruption!  They have forsaken the Lord; they have spurned the Holy One of Israel and turned their backs on him....... Why do you persist in rebellion?"

We see in Isaiah that the Kings who trust in God are delivered by God, but those who trust in man or their own strengths and alliances, fall short and are destroyed.

I see that time and time again in my own "Life with Autism" in that each time I put my trust in the medical profession, I am disappointed. 

It reminds to keep my trust and my faith and my strength - in God

In these readings, it's also just as clear that he does not like the mere "act" or "motions" of religion.

Isaiah 1:13 says, "Stop bringing meaningless offerings!"  "I cannot bear your evil assemblies.  Your New Moon festivals and your appointed feasts my soul hates.  They have become a burden to me; I am weary of bearing them.  When you spread out your hands in prayer, I will hide my eyes from you; even if you offer many prayers, I will not listen.  Your hands are full of blood; wash and make yourselves clean.  Take your evil deeds out of my sight!  Stop doing wrong, learn to do right!  Seek justice, encourage the oppressed.  Defend the cause of the fatherless, plead the case of the widow. 

Isaiah 18 goes on.... "Come now, let us reason together," says the Lord.  Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool.  If you are willing and obedient, you will eat the best from the land; but if you resist and rebel, you will be devoured by the sword."  From the mouth of the Lord has spoken.

And as many previous day's readings on this journey -- God does love countries who repent and He is the author of fresh starts.

I'm encouraged by that.  I find myself often in need of repentance and a fresh start.  Like, sometimes daily!

God loves that.  He loves humbled hearts, humility, and honesty.

That's why I love Isaiah 1:18 above. "Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool." 

I believe there are many churches today who need to read that again and start taking the "Scarlet Letter" off of people.  So many who have sinned in the past but who have presently repented and have sinned in that way no more - are excluded from positions of service because of that past sin, not their present testimony of God's deliverance from it.  It saddens me.  There is no greater witness than learning from someone who overcame.  Changed.  Repented.

The greatest testimonies and witnesses to God's love are those from those who God has forgiven -- so shouldn't we? 

There's a lot of "falling by the sword" in these first pages of Isaiah, but then we come to a bright spot in Isaiah 6.... in Isaiah's Commission.

So often I joke with God, laugh with Him, get angry at Him, and call Him my friend.  But Isaiah 6 reminds me of how above all and more than each of those things God is to us, he is Holy.  He is to have our highest form of reverence.  He.Is.Holy.

Isaiah 6:3 is where the seraphs were calling to one another:  "Holy, holy, holy is the Lord Almighty; the whole earth is full of his glory."

I cannot wait to be in heaven one day and hear that in the purest of voices.  That chant played over and over and over.

Ahhh, the goose bumps!

At the sound of their voices the doorposts and thresholds shook and the temple was filled with smoke....

Isaiah realized at that moment just how Holy God is, was, and always will be.  He realized his place in the world compared to such a Holy God.  He realized his sin, his unworthiness, his own unholiness.

I do well to remind myself of that as often as I can.

In Isaiah 6:8 the Lord then asks, "Whom shall I send?  And who will go for us?" 

Isaiah said, "Here am I.  Send me!"

Oh how thankful I am for those warrior mom's and dad's and advocates of autism who though drowning in their own need, raise their hand high in answer to the call to help others in need.

Those like Dr. Wakefield who raise their hand and go, and say, and do, -- despite having everything taken from them in the process.

I'm thankful for those Christians who bravely step out of their comfort zones in serving a population that is not easy to serve yet who are in such desperate need of the hands and feet of Jesus to simply love on them.  Not fix them, cure them, teach them, or provide for them, --- just to love them.  Provide a place for them to have fun and fellowship.

Like many of us weary veterans of autism -- Isaiah asked, "For how long, O Lord?"

How long must we remain faithful?  How long must we serve?  How long must we be advocates?

Isaiah 6:11 is that answer....  "Until the cities lie ruined and without inhabitant, until the houses are left deserted and the fields ruined and ravaged, until the Lord has sent everyone far away and the land is utterly forsaken."

In summary --- as long as it takes!

We are to serve, speak, care for, advocate, witness, --- as long as it takes.

It is not the job of a few, it is the job of us all.

We are Isaiah, and it is our hands that must be raised and our hands that must stay raised until the truth is told and our children helped.

It is us who must live out Isaiah 7:9 that says, "If you do not stand firm in your faith, you will not stand at all."

It is us who must stand firm in our advocacy, in the truth, or not stand at all.

And when going up against my enemies, it is Isaiah 8:11 that will keep my head clear:  "The Lord Almighty is the one you are to regard as holy, he is the one you are to fear, he is the one you are to dread, and he will be a sanctuary...."

Isaiah 25 furthers that..... "You have been a refuge for the poor, a refuge for the needy in his distress, a shelter from the storm and a shade from the heat."

Indeed he has been ---

And always will be.




Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Love, sweet love...

Day 49

Song of Songs

Yeah, so, read this one on your own! 

But really, it's about sex.  Sex.  Sensuality.  Pretty much words Christians avoid talking about or saying as much as hell.

Yet those words are all very much of God.

GASP.

I guess I should leave it at that!

I will say though, that if my husband compared my hair to a flock of goats descending or my nose like a tower of Lebanon...

It might not produce the desired effect.

(smile)

But seriously, perhaps with a respite vacation, I could reconnect with the romantic intent of this book.


"Come, my lover, let us go to the countryside, let us spend (a week) in the villages...."

And all the autism warrior parents said?

WE WISH!

Meaningless! Meaningless! Utterly Meaningless!

Day 48

Ecclesiastes

Wow......

Don't read this book of the Bible if you're an autism mom looking for answers! 

Ecclesiastes 1 starts off our prozac-moment with:  "Meaningless!  Meaningless!" says the Teacher.  "Utterly meaningless!  Everything is meaningless."

Despite how depressing those words are, that phrase that is uttered numerous times throughout this book of the Bible - it really was quite meaningful to me.  I guess in the sense of how "Life with Autism" has totally changed my perspective of life.  Of Christianity and what it means.  All that it means.

Over and over the writer states how unfair everything is.  The rich still die, the poor get unearned wealth, thieves live long, good people die too soon.

Ecclesiastes 2:13
"I saw that wisdom is better than folly, just as light is better tan darkness.  The wise man has eyes in his head, while the fool walks in the darkness; but I came to realize that the same fate overtakes them both."

Innocent kids get autism.  Vaccines maim.  Mother's shouldn't have their adult son in the next room sleeping off seizures.  Mother's shouldn't have to change their adult son's who have leaky gut and can't always control their bowel movements.

Yup.  Autism can be quite meaningless.  Utterly meaningless.

Expect for how it teaches you meaning.

How there is no greater purpose or reward or joy in life than speaking for someone who can't speak for themselves.  Defending someone who can't defend themselves.  Caring for someone who can't care for themselves.

I would rather be poor and live only half my life than be rich and live my whole life not knowing the difference in that.

As Ecclesiastes conveys, we won't find "meaning" to certain fates in this life.  Or even perhaps the "meaning" of life itself.  To spend all of our time pursuing that is to miss the joy in the moments of God's gifts that we can realize.  See, hear, taste, smell, touch......

It's hard to understand that the same God who brings prosperity, also brings adversity.  And though this word is never mentioned in this book, I think it all goes back to the fact that our God is a Sovereign God.  Whose wisdom and reasons are beyond our grasp.

As much as we try to seek self-fulfillment, we won't find it.
We must simply pursue God --- He, we can find.

We must try not to live in a way that values things -- they perish.
We must simply live in a way that honors God --- He is eternal.

We can't begin to understand the "why."
All we can do is cling to the "Who."

We simply aren't in control of life's situations, but we are in control of how we react to them.  I guess that's what my son Brandon has taught me the most in his "Life with Autism."  How there is such joy, such laughter, such HOPEISM despite the utter meaninglessness of that autism.

So much of his autism is found in these verses of Ecclesiastes 3 --
There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: 
a time to be born and a time to die,

a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep an a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

He has made everything beautiful in its time.  He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.  I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live.  That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil -- this is the gift of God.  I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it.  God does it so that men will revere him.


I guess that's how you can define success in Ecclesiastes....  In being able to find joy in the often meaninglessness of life.

The good, the bad, and the ugly.

And there's something pretty darned meaningful in that....

And in this:
Ecclesiastes 12:13
"Now all has been heard; here is the conclusion of the matter:  Fear God and keep his commandments, for this is the whole duty of man.  For God will bring every deed into judgment, including every hidden thing, whether it is good or evil."


Read that one again Pharma..... CDC.......  NIH:
"For God will bring every deed into judgment, including every hidden thing, whether it is good or evil."


Monday, February 18, 2013

Proverbs

Day 47

Proverbs

Proverbs 21
A fortune made by a lying tongue is a fleeting vapor and a deadly snare.

If a man shuts his ears to the cry of the poor, he too will cry out and not be answered.

He who pursues righteousness and love finds life, prosperity and honor.

A false witness will perish, and whoever listens to him will be destroyed forever.

There is no wisdom, no insight, no plan that can succeed against the Lord.


Proverbs 22
A good name is more desirable than great riches; to be esteemed is better than silver or gold.

Humility and the fear of the Lord bring wealth and honor and life.

Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it.

A generous man will himself be blessed, for he hares his food with the poor.


Proverbs 23
Do not wear yourself out to get rich; have the wisdom to show restraint.  Cast but a glance at riches, and they are gone, for they will surely sprout wings and fly off to the sky like an eagle.

Do not let your heart envy sinners, but always be zealous for the fear of the Lord.

Listen, my son, and be wise, and keep your heart on the right path. 


Proverbs 24
By wisdom a house is built, and through understanding it is established; through knowledge its rooms are filled with rare and beautiful treasures.

Proverbs 27
As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another.


Proverbs 28
Better a poor man whose walk is blameless than a rich man whose ways are perverse.

He whose walk is blameless is kept safe, but he whose ways are perverse will suddenly fall.

He who works his land will have abundant food, but the one who chases fantasies will have his fill of poverty.


He who gives to the poor will lack nothing, but he who closes his eyes to them receives many curses.

Proverbs 31
Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves, for the rights of all who are destitute. 

Speak up and judge fairly; defend the rights of the poor and needy.


Friday, February 15, 2013

Proverbs

Day 46

Proverbs

Proverbs  1
My son, if sinners entice you, do not give in to them.........do not go along with them, do not set foot on their paths; for their feet rush into sin, they are swift to shed blood.

For the waywardness of the simple will kill them, and the complacency of fools will destroy them; but whoever listens to me will live in safety and be at ease, without fear of harm.

Proverbs 2
My son, if you accept my words and store up my commands within you, turning your ear to wisdom and applying your heart to understanding, and if you call out for insight and cry aloud for understanding, and if you look for it as for silver and search for it as for hidden treasure, then you will understand the fear of the Lord and find the knowledge of God.  For the Lord gives wisdom, and from his mouth come knowledge and understanding,.  He holds victory in store for the upright, he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless, for he guards the course of the just and protects the way of his faithful ones.

For the upright will live in the land, and the blameless will remain in it; but the wicked will be cut off from the land, and the unfaithful will be torn from it.


Proverbs 3
My son, do not forget my teaching, but keep my commands in your heart, for they will prolong your life many years and bring you prosperity.  Let love and faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart.  Then you will win favor and a good name in the sight of God and man.  Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.  Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil.  This will bring health to your body and nourishment to your bones.  Honor the Lord with your wealth, with the firstfruits of all your crops; then your barns will be filled to overflowing, and your vats will brim over with new wine.

My son, preserve sound judgment and discernment, do not let them out of your sight; they will be life for you....  Then you will go on your way in safety, and your foot will not stumble; when you lie down, you will not be afraid; when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet.


Proverbs 4
Listen, my son, accept what I say, and the years of your life will be many.  I guide you in the way of wisdom and lead you along straight paths.  when you walk, your steps will not be hampered; when you run, you will not stumble.  Hold on to instruction, do not let it go; guard it well, for it is your life.  Do not set foot on the path of the wicked or walk in the way of evil men.

Proverbs 6
There are six things the Lord hates, seven that are detestable to him:  haughty eyes, a lying tongue, hands that shed innocent blood, a heart that devises wicked schemes, feet that are quick to rush into evil, a false witness who ours out lies, and a man who stirs up dissension among brothers.

Proverbs 8
To fear the Lord is to hate evil; I hate pride and arrogance, evil behavior and perverse speech.

I love those who love me, and those who seek me find me.


For whoever finds me finds life and receives favor from the Lord.

Proverbs 10
The man of integrity walks securely, but he who takes crooked paths will be found out.

Proverbs 11
Wealth is worthless in the day of wrath, but righteousness delivers from death.

Proverbs 12
The Lord detests lying lips, but he delights in men who are truthful.

In the way of righteousness there is life; along that path is immortality.

Proverbs 14
He who fears the Lord has a secure fortress, and for his children it will be a refuge.

He who opposes the poor shows contempt for their Maker, but whoever is kind to the needy honors God.


Proverbs 15
Better a little with the fear of the Lord than great wealth with turmoil.  Better a meal of vegetables where there is love than a fattened calf with hatred.

Proverbs 16
Better a little with righteousness than much gain with injustice.

In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.

Better to be lowly in spirit and among the oppressed than to share plunder with the proud.

Whoever gives heed to instruction prospers, and blessed is he who trusts in the Lord.


Proverbs 19
Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails.

Better to be poor than a liar.

Thursday, February 7, 2013

Psalms

Day 45

Psalms

Psalm 136
Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good.
His love endures forever.
Give thanks to the God of gods.
His love endures forever.
Give thanks to the Lord of lords:
His love endures forever.
to him who alone does great wonders,
His love endures forever.
who by his understanding made the heavens,
His love endures forever.
who spread out the earth upon the waters,
His love endures forever.
who made the great lights ----
His love endures forever.
the sun to govern the day,
His love endures forever.
the moon and stars to govern the night;
His love endures forever.

Give thanks to the God in heaven.
His love endures forever.

Psalm 138
I will praise you, O Lord, with all my heart.....

Though I walk in the midst of trouble, you preserve my life; you stretch out your hand against the anger of my foes, with your right hand you save me. The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your love, O Lord, endures forever ----


Psalm 139
O Lord, you have searched me and you know me.  You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.  You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways.  Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O Lord.

For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.  I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.

Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.  See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.


Psalm 142
I cry aloud to the Lord; I lift up my voice to the Lord for mercy. I pour out my complaint before him/ before him I tell my trouble.

When my spirit grows faint within me, it is you who know my way. 


Psalm 144
Praise be to the Lord my Rock, who trains my hands for war, my fingers for battle.  He is my loving God and my fortress, my stronghold and my deliverer, my shield, in whom I take refuge, who subdues peoples under me.

Psalm 145
Great is the Lord and most worthy of praise; his greatness no one can fathom.

The Lord upholds all those who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down.

The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth.


Psalm 150
Let everything that has breath praise the Lord.

Praise the Lord.



Psalms

Day 44

Psalms

Psalm 108
With God we will gain the victory, and he will trample down our enemies.

Psalm 111
Great are the works of the Lord; they are pondered by all who delight in them.  Glorious and majestic are his deeds, and his righteousness endures forever.  He has caused his wonders to be remembered; the Lord is gracious and compassionate.

The works of his hands are faithful and just; all his precepts are trustworthy.  They are steadfast and for ever and ever, done in faithfulness and uprightness.  He provided redemption for his people; he ordained his covenant forever -- holy and awesome is his name.


Psalm 115
Not to us, O Lord, not to us but to your name be the glory, because of your love and faithfulness.

Psalm 118
Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; his love endures forever.

The Lord is with me; I will not be afraid.  What can man do to me?  The Lord is with me; he is my helper.  I will look in triumph on my enemies.

The Lord is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation.

This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.

Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord.


Psalm 119
Teach me, O Lord, to follow your decrees; then I will keep them to the end.  Give me understanding, and I will keep your law and obey it with all my heart.  Direct me in the path of your commands, for there I find delight.  Turn my heart toward your statutes and not toward selfish gain.  Turn my eyes away from worthless things; preserve my life according to your word.

Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path.

You are my refuge and my shield; I have put my hope in your word.


Psalm 121
I lift up my eyes to the hills -- where does my help come from?  My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.  He will not let your foot slip -- he who watches over you will not slumber....

The Lord watches over you -- the Lord is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.
  The Lord will keep you from all harm -- he will watch over your life; the Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.